My pregnancy may have dragged by, but the time since having Emmett has flown. While I was editing my friend Leah's maternity session, I started reminiscing on when she took my maternity portraits while I was pregnant in September, and I started to get so emotional. I met Leah online through The Rising Tide Society and we quickly became internet friends, but it was a full year before we would meet in person when we shot a wedding here in Beaufort together. I was so excited to plan my maternity portraits with her, and having them done was one of the few truly enjoyable parts of my pregnancy. I was supposed to still be on bedrest the day these were taken, but honestly, after two months already in bed, I needed a break!
Looking back, I can hardly remember what it was like living in the world before Emmett was part of it. I know I existed before he did, and I know Drew and I had nearly four years married and ten years of friendship and dating before we became parents, but now he's just so much a part of me that I can't even picture what those days looked like without feeling like I'm looking at someone else's memories, because surely those can't be mine if Emmett isn't part of them?
I always tell my clients I don't sell things I wouldn't invest in myself, so when I'm showing print possibilities, I'm picturing the three different bookshelves in my home full of our maternity portraits, or the wall in our bedroom with three canvases from our wedding, or the blank space I have saved in the stairwell for a huge canvas or metal print from our upcoming family portraits. These images remind me of the last days of anticipation, that strange awe of loving the baby inside me but not knowing him yet, of knowing his name but not his face, and of feeling him move but not knowing his voice. The days of hospital visits, months of contractions, nursery planning, and desperately hoping he'd stay inside until full term, and then hitting full term and desperately hoping to go into labor. The anticipation and joy and fear and worry and love all wrapped up in those days is something I hope I never forget, and thanks to these images I never will.
By the way, ladies, both of my dresses were under $30 ( green dress, blue dress similar) and both came from Amazon. I'm kind of obsessed and still wear them both now that I'm not pregnant. You're welcome.